Gmail - nice handling in ULE (was: Re: SCHEDULE and high load situations)

Gmail - nice handling in ULE (was: Re: SCHEDULE and high load situations)

What crap is this that I have to handle. I've got my car into an accident. Initial investigations suggest I was not focused behind the wheel of my car. I was on the highway, following behind a volvo 940Gl, driving around 80-90 kmph. As we were coming down from an elevated part of the road, the volvo suddenly braked, causing me to brake, and i skid and hit his car. Luckily, no one was hurt. Luckily, his car was only scratched and scraped at the back bumper, other than that, his car was fine. Me? I'm okay. My charade though, right front panel, right front and side headlights, grill and hood are wrecked. I had a friend take a look at it, and he estimated, 400-500 bucks to fix that. The next day though, I was still wondering why I skid so far... I checked my tires... all 4 tires were nearly bald. That was why I skid that far. NO GRIP! So I check, that's gonna cost me another 350 bucks to fix. Oh... and not forgetting, paying the volvo guy 400 bucks to settle his car fixing (he's replacing the bumper).. so.. I will be spending around 1200 bucks for this tragedy. And just a few days before that, I told my dad I wanted to buy that car off from him....

I tell you.. irony is sometimes not needed in life. Especially when you have only 440 bucks left in your bank account...
Oh.. and that's why I'm looking for a better paying job..
I'm sorry I had to write this.. I'm just feeling a lot frustrated right now. It's annoying how I've yet to make any big breaks in my life, and only met with so many 'bumps' along the road. Susah sangat ada these bumps, I might as well take the train, since the car isn't kosher for the road no more.

go figure..

Network Appliance - Results for 'tape library control'

Network Appliance - Results for 'tape library control'

So... todays' topic is, tape library control for NetApp product. What is this really talking about then? Very simple. I'm looking for a better paying job. Hahahaha..

Apa boleh buat... kesempitan wang.. I mean, seriously mate.. I thought i'd survive on bare essentials.. apparently my lifestyle is not allowing me bare essentials. Crud.. :P

Tengok la macam mana nak jadi. I actually like this company also. RDM ni.. NetApp lagi la.. memang nak stay buat NetApp. I'm like that actually, kalau dah suka tu, nak stay with it. But times are getting worse. I'm gonna try and apply with NetApp again, but it'll be slim chances since I'm a Malaysian, applying for an international position. The way I see it, I am technically capable to tackle the job I'm applying for. I guess what I lack is years of experience and proper training. All this while what I've learned is ad-hoc. I am trained to absorb technical knowledge though, and I love hands on experience any time of the day. So please la... NetApp... or whoever out there does network enterprise storage and backup. All I want is a break. I want to live a comfortable life. Get married, have kids, and pay off my debts. Very simple.

Hope someone reads this and asks for my resume.. hehe..

My Baby's Feeling Blue..

First.. I need to sigh... sighh......

Why do I sigh? Well.. I sigh because someone I love isn't feeling her best today. It seems today there was an argument involving herself and another colleague regarding work. Professionally, the other colleague was at fault, and her boss has already justified this. Unfortunately, I think she feels bad because her colleague was the cause of the problem, and will continue to give her turmoil. Not to mention it definitely shatters the good feeling of a nice working environment when you know someone like that is around. It just makes the whole place a crappy place to work. Well.. she did mention a lot of times also, that the office wasn't exactly Professionalism Headquarters.

So, I guess after a while, it does get to you if you work in a crappy place, no matter how hard you try to put it aside and try and do work. I feel bad for her. I wish she'll get a better place to work. It's just so hard though to relate to her job, as we both are in different profession circles. But whenever I can, I try to be supportive of her work, and what she's doing. She deserves the best, cause she is the best. And having things like this happen to her in her current company really dampens the mood.

Although, I thought she'd be happy though today, cause her deleted blogs from before have been recovered by her blog host admin. That one, was my fault. I did it. I am guilty. And I do feel guilty. But I thought by getting it back, it'll cheer her up...

But wait.... crap.. it just occured to me.. there was a reason why it was deleted in the first place. Maybe she's reading through all of the old blogs, and maybe she's feeling sad for what had happened.

In that case, again, it's my fault. Things prior to the deleted blogs and within the few weeks of that incident were very tense between us. And I, chose the wrong time to read her blogs and try and understand her. In a matter of fashion, I was too late. And all I could read by then were hurtful things, or things that hurt her. And now I feel so wrong. I gave her pain instead of healing it. I caused her more harm than good.

Could that be the reason she's feeling this way? She says she's missing someone. I wish I knew who that someone is. In a way, if the person is not me, I'm envious of him/her because the person has her attention. But also, I wish I knew the person, so I could somehow bring him/her to my baby so she won't miss the person so much.

Tonite, I'll try and cheer her up. I don't know what to do yet, wish I did. If anyone has any idea of how I can do this, please.. oh please tell me. I just want her to be happy... She deserves a lot of happiness after all these years..

my java broke my firefox

Err.... i'm just pissed.. my firefox (web browser) was happily running along the internet superhighway, and just when I wanted to check my online stock, evil doings in java caused my firefox to crash. It's not like it's fatal. Firefox is still there, I'm just exasperated cause I can't check on my online stock using firefox. Or even anything on the BSD machine at the moment. Yes.. I've just wrote a bunch of computer jargon. Sorry for not making it clear. I bet you, if you google them words you don't understand, you'll find a whole new world of stuff out there..... And it's FREE! :D

Anyways.. My neck also hurts. I think I strained it while sleeping or something. I was so tired coming back that;

a) I wonked out in front of my living room, 5 minutes after i walked into my house.
b) I gave the most unenthusiastic show of face when my girlfriend wanted to go watch a movie last nite.
c) The minute I did get up from my nap on the floor, I immediately remembered that I sent a text message to my girlfriend, and forgot that she can't reply. After which I felt like a dumbass. Called her up, said good nite.. and wonked out again on my mattress in my room.

Sigh... I wish this flu will go away. It's annoying. Good thing I didn't snooze at work yesterday. Maybe I should do that today. The crank in my neck is making me slouch some kind of funny. Maybe rest will help... sighh...

CiAO!

I don't try to be deep.

First of all, I don't really know who reads my blogs. Well I do know 1 permanent audience la. I do hope she stays my no.1 fan. But other than that, I don't know who else is reading my writings.

So... what's the story today? Well.. let's see... I've been thinking la.. and I can see the pattern in my writings... nothing deep at all.. quite shallow in fact.. Nothing that delves into my deeper soul. At least not like before la. But then again, that was what I was thinking.. As in, am I really writing this to release whatever is inside of me to the world? Tak jugak. I am no poet, nor am I a tortured soul. My writings were only to be for me. I remain shallow because I'm musing about events around me, and things that affect me. I have no reason to share my innermost whatever with anyone. Suffice to say, and I don't mean this as a snide remark to anyone, I write for the joy of writing. But in no way shall I ever reveal my deep most secrets within the space of this site.

But then again.. I may change my mind...

CiAO!

Woah.... worst nite of my life - health-wise.

This sucks.. My left ear and nose are blocked. Water is streaming down my left eye. and it hurts somewhere behind the bridge of my nose. I am having the worst sinus problem in years! I can't sleep rite now, so I'm writing my agony. Crap.. crap!! Dun feel like going to work tomorrow. I can hardly see with my left eye.

latest in ammars health.

Great.. the flu just got worse.. now i've got runny nose and sneezing like a wet dog.. sigh..

Gawd... I'b sick... snort... snort..

woke up this morning with a tingle at the back of my throat. I guess I must've been hazy, because the minute I was fully awake, it became annoyingly itchy. Yes.. I've contracted a virus. Darnit.. I was doing so well being NOT sick. Now I'm sick. It's not the kind that gives you headaches, or lethargy, or diarrhea. But it's the annoying you at the back of your head while you work kinda sick. Hate em much.. always there.. have to patiently wait to get well.. sigh..

oh.. my parents are going to bali tomorrow. Got tickets and everything.. tonight they'll come to KL first before pushing off. It'll be good. I'm sure i've got a lot of nagging to listen to. but it's worth it.

Okay.. back to work

Making Nasi Ayam..

I'ts always been my tradition to cook nasi ayam for ppl close to me. I've cooked it for good buddies back in Irvine, housemates in Ann Arbor, my singapore buddies around the US... It's something I only do because I want to give a piece of me back to them. :)

Today.. I'm making nasi ayam for juju and afiq. Juju being my main lady, and afiq the brother. Senang hati gak pagi ni.. I always feel happy whenever I'm in their company. It's like I'm with my own family. Gives you that warm feeling inside. I want to share with them that warm feeling too. And I still hope and pray to god that good things will follow and I do lead a happy and content life with Juju.

Anyways.. continue cooking..
CiAO!