My Baby's Feeling Blue..

First.. I need to sigh... sighh......

Why do I sigh? Well.. I sigh because someone I love isn't feeling her best today. It seems today there was an argument involving herself and another colleague regarding work. Professionally, the other colleague was at fault, and her boss has already justified this. Unfortunately, I think she feels bad because her colleague was the cause of the problem, and will continue to give her turmoil. Not to mention it definitely shatters the good feeling of a nice working environment when you know someone like that is around. It just makes the whole place a crappy place to work. Well.. she did mention a lot of times also, that the office wasn't exactly Professionalism Headquarters.

So, I guess after a while, it does get to you if you work in a crappy place, no matter how hard you try to put it aside and try and do work. I feel bad for her. I wish she'll get a better place to work. It's just so hard though to relate to her job, as we both are in different profession circles. But whenever I can, I try to be supportive of her work, and what she's doing. She deserves the best, cause she is the best. And having things like this happen to her in her current company really dampens the mood.

Although, I thought she'd be happy though today, cause her deleted blogs from before have been recovered by her blog host admin. That one, was my fault. I did it. I am guilty. And I do feel guilty. But I thought by getting it back, it'll cheer her up...

But wait.... crap.. it just occured to me.. there was a reason why it was deleted in the first place. Maybe she's reading through all of the old blogs, and maybe she's feeling sad for what had happened.

In that case, again, it's my fault. Things prior to the deleted blogs and within the few weeks of that incident were very tense between us. And I, chose the wrong time to read her blogs and try and understand her. In a matter of fashion, I was too late. And all I could read by then were hurtful things, or things that hurt her. And now I feel so wrong. I gave her pain instead of healing it. I caused her more harm than good.

Could that be the reason she's feeling this way? She says she's missing someone. I wish I knew who that someone is. In a way, if the person is not me, I'm envious of him/her because the person has her attention. But also, I wish I knew the person, so I could somehow bring him/her to my baby so she won't miss the person so much.

Tonite, I'll try and cheer her up. I don't know what to do yet, wish I did. If anyone has any idea of how I can do this, please.. oh please tell me. I just want her to be happy... She deserves a lot of happiness after all these years..