What I hate about certain things in life..

The frigging door card reader's broken.. rendering
the door useless. Betapa cibainyer benda PACS
buduh ni.. Aku macam nak maki jer kat vendor
yang pasang benda pintu ni.. Waaait.. aku dah
maki pun smalam. Bloody vendor called me and
told me what to do. I told the bloody vendor..
I've done that already.. skit lagi nak cakap 'you
idiot'. Why can't they just come and look at it
themselves? Kita dah baya mahal2 for their
services, and then they buat cibai camni. I mean
I have clients too what.. Takde la aku bodoh2
suro diorang buat my freaking job. Siap aku buat
keje diorang ada la.. tak tau nak keep
customers betul.. buduh.. pegi skolah buang
duit mak bapak aje..

Sorry eh.. marah hari ni plak.. ingat dah nak
cool jer the whole day.. hahah.. yeah right.. :P

Why I love my job.. :)

I've only been in this job for almost a year now. And thing just can't
be any better. Well it is getting better!!

This May, we're starting our newest installation project in Brunei.
At first, my senpai, Peter, was to be the lead engineer. Myself, being
the kohai, was to tag and asisst la. For me, this is already up in the
sky kinda cool la.. To be able to build high end data centers, million
dollar projects kinda stuff. Any young doe eyed engineer in my shoes
would already drool in delight..

Now... the exciting turn of events... Our accounts manager here got
promoted to China. Which in turn, moved Peter up into the spot...
Now, since he is holding that position, our contract is restricting him
from being technically involved in the project. Sooo..... :D I'M IN
CHARGE!! wooohooo!!! I'll the "principal technical expert" for the
Brunei project!!!

This is already beyond my expectations. Of course, I'll be stuck with
paperwork and what not afterwards. But.. but.. this is like... WOW!
seegguui!!.. ureshi ureshi ureshi!! Can't contain happiness.. Hardly a
year into this job, and I get this kind of opportunity.

I must prove to myself that I can do this.. I will be efficient. I'll make
sure I do not pull down the good name of my company. I will be
professional. I want to make everyone proud of my job. This will
definitely be a stepping stone in my career....hahahah..
wooohoo!! I'm IN CHARGE!! heheheh...

Love my job.. I really really love my job...
I really thank god for this.. Giving me such good fortune..

WOOHOOO!!
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Oh.. got a good one to talk about today..
I've got a dilemma..
There's a rugby tourney this 2-4th May, in Kuching..
The President's Cup... President apa tak tau la..
It's confirm at least 8 teams are joining from all over
Sarawak.. Who'd imagine Sarawak had that many
teams.. heh... It'll be really cool to join.. lama tak
join competition.. ... BUT....

on the 3-4 May, in Brunei.. Malaysia Nature Society,
Miri chapter has a "Trip to Selirong Island Nature Reserve"
2 whole days of jungle trekking in Selirong Island..
I tell you.. when i rains, it pours... :D

So... have to flip a coin la.. I'm so into both... and each
ada pro and con.. Brunei dekat.. and the money spent
won't be much.. plus... it's only two days..

But then... rugby.. even though in Kuching.. and have to
get tickets and what not.. it's still a MATCH! competition..
biase la.. guys being guys.. :)

So.. dilemma nih.. help me out here mates... what should i do?

Listening to Incubus - Blood On The Ground.
Need to find Puddle of Mudd CD now..

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Farah Faisal's Blog...
Junior of mine in Michigan. Although, I've only met her once or twice.
She came in when I was about to leave.. Anyway, nice gal.. nice blog..

Riight.. so today.. well.. nothing much happened today..
Last nite though.. hung out with jimi for hours.. I think my mind was
trying to make up the lost time since last week... gile banyak nak
citer tu.. heh.. house, girls, work, food, Brunei.. everything..

In regards to the house.. still no improvement... this one must be
proactive la actually.. It's just me not being such..

In regards to work.. heheh.. well.. work still is slow.. I take back about
what I said with Petronas.. there is ONE person who doesn't like me..
well.. more like i don't like him.. and make his life a living crud.. :)
things don't pick up until next week pun.. My senpai's trying to send
me to KL for two more courses.. oracle and storage tech... should be
interesting.. but it's fifty-fifty going... because register lambat..

and then.. girls.. sigh.. girls.. after many2 conversations and a very late
self realization on my part.. i believe that i will stop pursuing a serious
relationship for an indefinite time. It's come to my attention, for quite
some time actually, that I have a huge block in my way.. I'm still hung up
over Shuhada. Even after having my heart severly beaten, broken, and
damaged time and time again. How many times does she have to break
up with me and cut me out of her life to make me realize.. it's over.. I want
it to be over.. I really really really want it to be over. I want to move on..
I want to meet other girls and actually commit.. I can't.. Either of two extremes
will make this all rosy, (and that's pretty much cold day in hell kinda hard,
according to jimi). And that is to get back with her somehow, or to have
that glut stuck in my heart called "hung over shuhada", to be totally removed.
I'm working on the second one. It's too painful to go back. and I'm hurting
other people by staying this way..

Sigh.. slowly goes the day..

oh.. bowling tonight.. rugby before that.. maybe some cruel physical
punishment will help numb this cruddy feeling... :P

Just got back from clients office... The good un and the bad un..
Good news... Petronas has very little problems, and they like me.
Bad new... Shell has many problems, and they think i'm an airhead.
I've decided to go to Shell first each time I go down, and then to
Petronas afterwards to cheer me up.. :D

So.... nothing much going on.. boredom has reduce due to current
working activity... but i'm now getting hooked on updating my blog.
I got a call from a friend who's got a friend coming to Miri and searcing
for a house... whoopeee!!... Well.. have to still see if the guy and
I can get along.. I mean.. if he meddles with my Gilmore Girls and
rugby match line-up, then he is so not my housemate. >:(

Nothing could catch my attention more than those two lovely and
coffee craved ladies. Sigh... Such doe-eyed innocence in Rory's
eyes... And such funny and uplifting sarcasm from the mom..

Aaaanyways.. back to housing problem... will try and check out this
guy.. see if we can get along.. and maybe also still look for other
options.. got only so many eggs and so many baskets only though.
hmmm... tuff choise. :P

Oh yeah.. Queens Of The Stone Age - No One Knows..
good shit.... sigh.. i miss 89X radio...
Nothing in Malaysia has rock radio as good as 89X..
That that shit's Goooooddd!!! >:P

Anyway... still looking for a new place..
working life got slightly more interesting.. Our clients
threatening to cut some of our support services ==>
means less money for the team.. but eh.. fire fighting
is one of our expertise,.. negotiations are in process,
and while that is happening, Ammar has to be a good
and diligent little boy, and always check up our our
clients happiness and their system's health. :)

Got my tyres changed, balanced and aligned today..
at last... Been postphoning that for 2 months now..
Of course, my measly bonus is hardly enough to
cover the cost... Oh well.. safety is more important..
hmm... maybe i can somehow make my company
pay for it under some HSE based pretense? It's
definitely a safety issue if you drive with bald tires,
and prevention is definitely better than cure.. which
is exactly what i'm doing.. reduce the risk.. prevent
an accident from happening due to bald tires.. and
my my... it sure is pouring hard in Miri these days..
:)

Goodness I love to write... sometimes I think I have
too much time on my hand... hmm... maybe doing
something proactive like studying would help?
(OH GOD!!! I SAID THE "S" WORD!!!) heheh.. yeah right..

So.. Lyn last night.. what happened ey?!?
I'm sure some of you would like to know all the
nasty details? >:D

Well.. Here it goes... so there she was.. all fine and
sexy.. sitting on the sofa and me opposite her..
and it all started... She went across the table and started..
her Omega Trend presentation!!!

AAAARRGGGHH!!!!

For those of you who do not know what OmegaTrend is..
well.. thank goodness!!! It's basically another Amway,
without the direct selling part. But it still smells of
MLM spirit!!... god! and I almost knew she was going
to do that!!! I'd dreaded it the night before she came..

It's time I set things straight. I don't want to be bogged
down by financial freedoms' shackles.. Now that's an
oxymoron if you ever heard one... I am not working for
money. I am working to learn. To enjoy what I do.. Of
course the money is important.. But it's not it's not the
driving force for me to work.. It's the pure pleasure of
doing what I love to do.... Something that some ppl
have a hard time comprehendingthat concept...
Some doctors work in government hospitals because
they believe in helping ppl. They could easily make 5
times more in a private hospital. But the don't. If you
say no such person exists, well I can prove you wrong
by introducing you to at least 3 different doctors with
different backgrounds. It's true ladies and gentlemen,
sometimes people do work NOT for money.

But don't get me wrong... I'm not saying that people
who work for money suck or anything. It's just that
our goals in life are different. So, even if I "makan
gaji" for now. For me, I'm on the right path. Maybe a
bit slow.. but I'll reach my goal, the hard way.

Uh! forgot plak... update of the day..
Lyn is in Miri!! Who's Lyn you ask? old MRSM friend.
Cute gal from Kuching. Working with Sarawak Net as
an IT person. Dunno what she does really.

Anyways.. This hot hot chick from Kuching by the name
of Lyn is in Miri today, and later tonight, I'm going for
dinner with her.. heheh.. Okay.. no monkey business..
I like her and all.. but as most of my friends have advised
I need to build the friendship and trust. So, I'm just having
dinner with an old friend.

Garsh.. I'm so desperado these days.. It's gotta be the
lack of dating scene in Miri.. Balik2 muka tu gak.. plus..
the town's too small.. if you do something.. "they" will
know... sshhhh..

On a cruddier side.. I've got aching muscle dating back
to Thursday rugby practice. my obliques feel sore.. and
my thighs..even my arms... uurgghh... :P..
word to the un-wise.. warm up.. start slow.
And if you're an old fool like me, remember that these
aren't your golden years... :)

A good friend of mine was acting wierd again this weekend.
Normally, every Sunday, we'd enjoy lunch at our nasi
lemak hang out. This week though, he seems to be a bit
out. I do believe he's in a rut of some sort.

Wish could find out what and help him out. But he's
sort of the VERY sensitive kind, and I'm the very rough and
tumble kinda guy. Whatever it is, I hope he's passed it.

Anyways.. played softball last Sunday, we lost.. heh..
I think i should put more focus into my physical training.
Back in college, I'd never make the mistake i made yesterday..
Sigh... glory days, Ammar.... time to move on.. make more
glory days.. :)