Been Too Long...

You'd Think I Was Busy..

Huish.. lama gila tak tulis blog.. daang.... wonder what happened??
Many factors attributing to it me thinks.. Can never trust me to
do anything continuously, cept eating and sleeping.. oh heck..

Loads of stories in my head.. crappy stories really.. or stories that
make me feel like crap. Hmm.. but in writing them down, would it
really help me feel better? Not sure. I mean.. I wrote this blog to
relief my stress, yeah? And yet.. I raise my voice and bit peoples
head off anytime they irritate me. And I get irritated very easily, just
as easily as I irritate people. :P Anyway, I attribute my current short
tempered reactions to me wanting to go back to the MAIN land, KL.

I'm getting under-appreciative of my work on a daily basis. I rather
read books than go to work. Heck, I rather stay in bed than go to work.
Crap.. what my boss said is true. And he dun want me to be like that.
Well.. it's happening... urggh.. Can't wait to get out of here. Until then,
I should start cleaning the computer lab. It IS a mess. I do agree..
But I'm in no such mood to clean up other ppls mess. Nampak sangat
keje kuli tak bertempat. For all you non-malay speaking folks out
there (well.. if you should happen to be reading), What I just said
translates to," Obviously, this is worse than a shitty slave job"

So.. where was I? Oh yeah.. losing motivation of work on daily
basis.. I wouldn't be having this much lack of enthusiasm if I actually
had a great life outside of work. But I don't... I can't ever cheer
myself up after work, so how to be happy @ work? I've decided
that... I've decided nothing. Right now I'm enjoying a few things.
1 - watching World Cup Rugby in the evenings at home.
2 - reading Neal Stephenson books.
3 - playing with my FreeBSD box.

Notice how neither of these activities has any human interaction?
That's what I'm missing here folks.. Miri, for all its great oil and
gas production, and it's modern shopping malls, and beautiful
indigenous people,... has little to offer me in the shape of friends.
Oh.. of course I have TONS of friends here.. But me, being a
picky person that I am, CANNOT find a friend that likes rugby
or is nice enough to tolerate watching it with me, reads the
same shit that I do or even reads that much, and hangs out
at nite at warongs (if such a things exist in Miri) together, and
just plain talk. I LOVE talking. If any of you have never noticed,
I talk A LOT! It's probably this single most constant thing with
me. Blow out hot air from my mouth. Do I give a shit if people
say I talk to much? to a certain degree, yes. But it doesn't stop
me talking. Okay.. i'm branching off again.. So.. as I was
saying. I'm at lost at finding friends of that sort here in Miri.

Therefore I'm saying I miss people I hang out with. People
who can tolerate my eccentricities and still tell me i'm fun to
hang with. I miss hanging out with a whole bunch of people.
I'm not saying that I haven't found good friends in Miri that
are just invaluable. Lovely2 people. But it's like food...

I like kuey tiau kerang goreng. And I also like the Sarawak
mee kolok. But if I eat mee kolok everyday, I'll miss my
kuey tiau kerang. Especially if you can't find places that sell
kuey tiau kerang here. (BTW I just found 2 places yesterday
that do sell char kuey tiau kerang, after 18 months.. :P)
Not saying that mee kolok lost its taste, but sometimes, you
just need that change in the palate.

I'm writing this out of boredom and lonliness by the way.
Oh.. forgot plak.. side story.. In the last few weeks, I went
out with people, and funny enough, most of these people
failed to mention that they're not single UNTIL after we
went out OR a bit after in the date. Crappy huh? Makes
me lose the feeling to want to go out for quite a bit.

Okay la.. depress giler skarang.. baik gi semayang.. CIAO!

oh.. and Slamat Berpuasa Bulan Ramadhan.

I'll be making a break fast session one day this month.
In Miri. If any of you are around... I'll be delighted if you
can come. Dates will be posted later..

CiAO!