looks like the bbq is on the way..

must remember to get plates, cups, marinade, potatoes.. wow.. list is long.. heh..

bowling thing worked out great last night..

will try and get a better arrangement next year... :)



Just finished watching Read Or Die... good story.. waited 3 years for the sub. heh..

Ooooh.. and I bought the newest Wheel of Time book, crimson twilight.. or something..

forgot already.. But.. that'll be great... a whole month for some serious reading... heh.. :P

tonite's bowling match..

wishing that things will work out

I don't feel like playing though..

whatever it is.. bbq is still on this saturday.

heh.. that's hopefully gonna be good.

Okay.. Back in Miri.. God, I love my job....

SHIT!

Somebody stop and kill me right now for saying that!.. :)

I've already put aside my cruddy feeling from last Monday. Work is putting me in a better mood.. (yes... I know I'm a freak).

What I want to do now is to focus back on work. Of course, I need to be careful of office politics... dodge em good!

AND.... to counter my rather lack luster birthday, a small barbeque on saturday... :) just close friends.

(Oh god, please give me a break, and show me that I do have good friends here... heh)

Bonus and payday tomorrow... must remember to keep some money for income tax, road tax & insurance.

Others.. heh... splurge!!! must buy digicam or PDA... still undecided... sigh.. technology.. y go so fast?

The day after my birthday... I would say I wish it was a normal day.... because...... IT WAS!!! Other than having some well wishes from friends and family, and a small lunch with friends who didn't know that it was my birthday, NOTHING HAPPENED!!!
I guess it was my fault. I didn't plan anything. But, all I wanted though was dinner with my close friends. Share the time laughing and talking. Share war stories, and good times..
Or maybe I want more. I think I did in a way. I just was settling for the least. But even then, I didn't get it.
I guess I'm bitter... Waaaaait... I know I'm bitter. How else would you explain me being cold to everyone past 10pm til today, (the day I'm going back to Miri-lah)?? Make sense though. In my emotional instability, I decided not to really trust most of my so called "friends" in KL to keep anything. I'm not important to them. Likewise I guess. They have lives outside of my own. And I'm not priority. But somehow, some of them could still be there for me. Definitely treasured friends. The through thick or thin kind of friends. And they really don't gain anything from our friendship pun. At the most is my same respect for them, and ability to help them as much as they've helped me. I'm truly in debt to these people. And when I count my blessings, they're up there. For being friends I can count on. My search for true friends is long process. Even amongst my many friends, it's the gems that I appreciate in the end. And I should remember that.

Okay... self healing time. In the end, I shouldn't be bitter about the passerby friends, but be thankful for the steadfast ones. :) Atashi ureshi!!