~~ a little bit of me ~~
Farah Faisal's Blog...
Junior of mine in Michigan. Although, I've only met her once or twice.
She came in when I was about to leave.. Anyway, nice gal.. nice blog..

Riight.. so today.. well.. nothing much happened today..
Last nite though.. hung out with jimi for hours.. I think my mind was
trying to make up the lost time since last week... gile banyak nak
citer tu.. heh.. house, girls, work, food, Brunei.. everything..

In regards to the house.. still no improvement... this one must be
proactive la actually.. It's just me not being such..

In regards to work.. heheh.. well.. work still is slow.. I take back about
what I said with Petronas.. there is ONE person who doesn't like me..
well.. more like i don't like him.. and make his life a living crud.. :)
things don't pick up until next week pun.. My senpai's trying to send
me to KL for two more courses.. oracle and storage tech... should be
interesting.. but it's fifty-fifty going... because register lambat..

and then.. girls.. sigh.. girls.. after many2 conversations and a very late
self realization on my part.. i believe that i will stop pursuing a serious
relationship for an indefinite time. It's come to my attention, for quite
some time actually, that I have a huge block in my way.. I'm still hung up
over Shuhada. Even after having my heart severly beaten, broken, and
damaged time and time again. How many times does she have to break
up with me and cut me out of her life to make me realize.. it's over.. I want
it to be over.. I really really really want it to be over. I want to move on..
I want to meet other girls and actually commit.. I can't.. Either of two extremes
will make this all rosy, (and that's pretty much cold day in hell kinda hard,
according to jimi). And that is to get back with her somehow, or to have
that glut stuck in my heart called "hung over shuhada", to be totally removed.
I'm working on the second one. It's too painful to go back. and I'm hurting
other people by staying this way..

Sigh.. slowly goes the day..

oh.. bowling tonight.. rugby before that.. maybe some cruel physical
punishment will help numb this cruddy feeling... :P