I lost..
No amount of crying will help. No amount of pleading will bring her back. I hate to be an agent of dramatics, but I've lost her... She will be gone from me soon. Says a good 'friend' of mine cousin.. Life goes on.. I guess it does.. But it's not as sweet.. Not as as clear.. I try to breath in the sweetness of her presence... and it's gone.. for I am my own bringer of pain. For I am only denying what is true.. I am not made for love.. I am only made for pain..
posted by Cold at 8/03/2004 10:37:00 PM
12 Comments:
u are not meant for pain...quit saying that. it's just that we started off wrongly...this whole relationship, i mean. u should've sorted out yr feelings for her before u actually jump into a relationship and not use the other person as an escapism. ammar..u're a great guy but we're just not meant to be together as a couple. i'm so sorry and i wish i can take away yr pain but i cant keep on lying to myself about it. i'm so very sorry.
You're right. I shouldn't have done that. I thought I was done with that. But I was mistaken. I still don't want you to go though. I know as much now as I did then that I still have feelings for you. I am happy already that you're not leaving. let's try first and be friends.
i would like that...i know that i want to be yr friend. rather keep our words short and simple otherwise we keep on misinterpreting each other's thoughts.
i wanna forget the past. I want to move on. And in the end, I want to come back to you and prove to you that I've buried my past issues, and I am ready to accept you as my one and only girl... Someday, I'm sure it'll happen.
someone once said to me...i dont wanna make promises i cant keep...i find truth in his words. hence, the reason why i shall not make empty promises that things will go back to normal between us but i cant stop u from wanting to try. so we both will do what we have to do. for now we need to find our own peace of mind!
sup ammar.... i've been following ur updates... aku as an outsider, i dunno u guys's story.... but somehow I know (by reading b'tween the lines of whatever of dis blog).... that ur still pining for "that" girl.... the one who initially broke ur heart..... hehehe well thats my theory....
hope everything works out for yah
it's that obvious that he's still hung up on her, huh??? damn me for thinking i can upt things right before...
the first girl is already gone. what is left is just loose ends that need to be tied up. I believe I'm not pining for her. I believe I am caught up with the guilt of breaking her heart. I just want to clear my conscience.
the purpose of this comment is to pass time until the doctor calls me for an excruciating suturing session and also to mock u...
yeah, right!!! guilt lah, whatever lah...it sure broke my heart. damn u for that.
and not a day goes by that I haven't regretted what I've done to you. Baby, I don't know what to do, but I'll try my best to unbreak your heart. Or at the least, make you love me again... I'm yours to command.. I want to try and make it better... better for you. If Bibi's looking out for everyone, who's looking out for Bibi, right? Let me be that one.
hmmm....whatever!!! (i'm mocking u again with my 'dont-care-less' attitude)
heheh sorry.. taktau wat i was saying..... but that was my opinion.... gluck
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