Fudge It.. Now I'm Sad..

I feel sad.. I feel lost.. I feel inept.. I feel useless.. This world is insane. I am not able for this world. I am not able to handle things of this world. And especially, I am not able to love and make the person I truly love the most feel most loved and understood. I cannot. I just cannot. I don't know why. I just seem to make all the silly mistakes all the time. What is wrong with me? Is my brain wired differently? Why can't I be the everything to the one that I love? I want to be the perfect thing to her. Never to cause harm, or concern in her. WHY?!? WHY!!!!!! Aku tau aku bodoh. Tak pandai nak jaga hati orang. Tak pandai nak melayan orang. Tak pandai banyak serba serbi. Dah la bodoh sombong. It's sickening sometimes being me. I hate myself. Just let me be....