My Doppelganger & I

My Doppelganger & I
I miss my baby.. sigh.. I miss her... shit.. I miss her.. what am I doing.. I miss her.. yeaahh.. that's rite.. i miss her.. I'm halfway doing my work, and I still miss her.. crud.. I hate this feeling of missing her... Lagi la.. dia kluar.. dia punya phone kita tak boleh call.. Not that I want to be in control or anything. I just want to know where she is and if she's safe and happy. Heck.. it doesn't matter. I know even though she says she's okay and happy.. the other part of her isn't happy and okay. I know this because she's already revealed this flip side of her to me. What I'm having a hard time right now is to understand fully the reasons that she isn't happy and okay. Constantly worrying about her being like that... I cannot let her be like that. Why? Cause I harbour feelings of affection for her. Because her happiness is most important for our relationship. Not to mention my own happiness... that is.. it's affected by her happiness.

I ramble.. I don't know why I ramble.. maybe it's been the first time since a few moments in time that I have some steam to blow.. sigh.. I want to talk to her without hurting her.. but i'm stupid that way. I don't know how to do it. I always say the wrong things whether i know it or not. most of the time i didn't even know it.

sigh... even in blogging i can sigh...
wonder where my baby's at.. wonder how she's doing... i miss my baby.. miss her much i do..