Grandma Not Doing Too Well.

Ladies and Gentlemen,

I have a sick grandmother. Early this morning she suffered a stroke. She has been having a lot of health issues lately, but so far has been going on strong. Now, she's probably at the last few stages of her life. At 4.20pm today, my mother called me and told me that a blood vessel had burst inside her head. At this point, I feel that she's in a grave position.... No... that's not right.. "I" feel empty. My grandmother is probably not having much left in her, and I feel nothing. I feel that I need to ask her for forgiveness, and then let her move on. Beyond that.. I feel nothing.

How do you deal with this? I mean, my other late grandmother, who we lovingly called 'pohpoh', when she died, I was 10, maybe 11 years old. She was already in a wheel chair. She had stroke. But she still lived a good life with all of her children and grandchildren til the day she died. That day, I was sad.

This grandma... well this grandma led a life that I had little to like. This grandma, she made my mothers life very difficult. This same grandma chose to protect those that she favors over those that were unjustly treated. Go figure.

But my prayers still go out to her. For as not nice as she was, she's still my fathers mother. And she is still my grandmother. We are who we are mostly because of our family. I pray to god that things will go smooth in these crucial moments.

Amin..