Events of the day

Irregardless who is reading this, I am writing this because it is for me. RIght?
That's what we always say. Well.. to some extent it not just for me. But it's also
for those out there to read about me, whoever you are, and either understand,
hate, love, loath, or like me. It's a simple fact.. I rant, and I rave about things
I write things that happened in my life and how I react to it and what I think
about it. A perspective that is mine....

So.. anyways.. I just felt that recently all my writing are less emotional... Not much
angst... Is it because there's nothing for me to complain about.. Yeah.. In a way
dah kurang benda nak complain.. online anyways.. I mean.. I could complain
about my friend that does things tha make me upset (it's an example jer eh)
But why voice it out in a 3rd person view to the public kan?

Oh goodness I'm rambling.. sigh.. why? ntah.. questions in my head..

Okay la... updates.. I paid money, so I'm joining a gym. I'm gonna do some
weight training and mostly cardio. My goal is a slimmer waistline AND a better
endurance. Nothing I can do about my dexterity..It's not like I'm trying to be
a champion boxer. Anyways.. my goal is to be more fit before the Jonah Jones
tourney starts.. It's almost like a dream come true... To be playing in a
real competitive game of such prestige.. I mean... wow.. cool.. kan? So.. I've
got to be fit for this thing. At least run the ball for half a game la.. 7 minutes
shouldn't be too hard.. It's hard running for 7 minutes tho.. sigh..

okay.. so.. what else? Hmm.. smalam i went out with one of the rugby guy for
Jonah Jones.. In fact dia la yang started it all.. So... smalam dia kat Miri, ajak
makan la.. with one of the managers of the office. Strictly hang out la..
Sembang2 ngan dia.. pastu lepak kat pub la.. orang putih.. nak minum..
i'm just enjoying the company.. So we moved around la to a few pubs..

I also dunno this ritual of pub hopping.. but it's cool.. I only drink 1 type of
drink pun.. non-alcol.. heh.. So.. anyways.. last last pusing2 we came to the
local nite club la.. and in the end, we started dancing.. sigh.. i tell u.. really
not my plan that nite.. ingat takat sembang jer.. so.. dah start dancing and
stuff.. lasted til 3 in the morning.. sigh.. sib baik bukan 5-6 pagi.. I need to
cut down a bit that part of my life. not much mental energy for it. especially when
i can't enjoy dancing with a gal.

Anyways.. next.. about gals.. hahah.. girls.. Anyways.. you ppl out there.. I
just hope no one out there amik hati sgt la what I'm saying, eh? So... what's
with me yeah? Smalam ada ramai giler awek kat club tu. And I'm still single.
Okay la.. what am I bitching about nih.. kan? Tah.... not sure.. But..
hmmm.. I like gals.. I like taking out gals.. I like pretty gals... I like gals
that have humour and are intelligent/interesting... Best bawak date and
sembang.. I also like flirting.. and a little intimacy.. yet everytime I'm close to
being in a relationship.. I get distant.. Pesal aaa??
I mean.. i know there are people out there who find a person like me very
attractive.. and I really like that.. I like ppl who think i'm attractive.. and
some of them... i'm attracted too. tapi... masalahnyer sekarang.. dah ada
attraction pun.. adhesion takde.. the glu aint gonna last.. Which makes me feel
a bit bothered la.. sebab.. To some points I want to be in a long lasting relation
ship.. I would really like to care about someone.. By the way.. even though I
like pretty gals.. I'm not that tied down to that.. Because a girl that can't capture
my interest in a conversation, no matter how cute she is.. normally i dah tak
interested dah.. So.. no.. Ammar doesn't just look at looks. And at the same
time.. tak tengok langsung tu tipu gila la.. I actually do mind going out with
a gal who's got the right stuff. There's no denying that.

entah la labu.. aku pun tak tau.. apasal aku tak bleh keep a relationship. And
every time orang datang kat aku skarang.. dah pikiaq camtu dah.. Memula
terkinja2 la nak kluar la apa la.. tapi like the minute I get my head back..
I start to think .. shit.. tahan lama ke tak eh? Damn....

By the way.. for those who are reading... Err.. If you think that I'm going to waste
your time by pulling you into this crazy mess of unreturned love, and you feel
like not trying to go out with me.. OR if you think other wise.. or any other
positive way about this.. (god knows who would), and want to give it that effort
and show me the beauty of life together forever...

Well.. it's up to you la kan.. I react as I will... I have to say that I am willing to
dance to the song of dating and couples.. but.. I refure to lead all the time...

Okay.. I dunno what I jsut said.. I might've just jeopardized a potential relation
ship with someone out there... sigh.. dunno..

Anyways... my droning has ceased.. and so i shall depart..

later...